But God

Things in life fall from my plan,

I thought I had a hold.

          Maybe my hold broke it.

I’m learning what I am to do.

          I know even still, God there is always you.

But God has the knowledge

          That I won’t ever know.

The pain of hopes lost can hurt more than a bullet.

          The shot of ache in my stomach reveals

How far I went.

          I’m sorry I did not keep the door

          Closed.

          I’m regretting the first stage

          Of hope.

But God you make all things work together for my good.

          I dive

                   In quickly

          Only to find you on the shore.

I hesitate

                   On the edge just to hear you

Call me in.

But God your thoughts are higher than mine.

          I hold to deferred hope.

But God has desire for me

          I grasp at strings of a gone season

But God is making all things new.

          I anchor to the dull ache

But God wants me to live in the miracle of the moment

          I feel lost in routine

But God shows miracles in the mundane.

          I wonder at words of past

But God is speaking to me rhema, right now

                   But God has victory

                             But God knows my name

                                      But God sees my tears

                   “But God remembered Noah”