My Still Born Advice

*written quite some time ago when I was walking through some things.

Foot steps come faster now
I don't bother to look
They will pass me-
I told them to run.
I stand.
            STILL
They trip as they run
At least they're moving-I think.
Why do I stare
My mind wanders
Oh-I shouldn't be here.
I ponder.
           STILL
Hypocrite-yes. Judging? Sure.
But cant I live by my words?
Run to God I say.
He will forgive-start anew
Trade lethargy for his legacy
His arms are open
I cry.
           STILL
True, I fall. Yes, I mess up.
Same as you-
Shouldn't I then turn to God-
Like I told you to?
In Him there is freedom
Why do we have to struggle?
           STILL